So why wait so long? Considering the difficult lives these dogs have had, it is extra important to make a good decision. With Mark and I in the thick of our careers, we will not take in an animal and leave it alone most of the day. We must weigh the goodness of having a heart filled with love romping in our home, against realizing the dream of our finally being able to travel. We want to be certain of a reliable caregiver when we do go away.
And there is the pain that lingers from Maggie's departure....Can I endure that intensity of loss again?
But all of this melts away as I look at Oliver's eyes, and feel him breathing in my arms, sitting contented and safe there. Yes...it will happen some day soon.
But Oliver is so charming, he will not stay long at the shelter. For us, it's just too soon, and he will not be ours, I'm afraid.
Do you remember "Goodbye Mr. Chips"? Chips, the schoolmaster of a boy's boarding school, is asked if he missed not having children. His response can be re-written to aptly describe my feelings, about my fulfillment at the shelter....
"...a pity I never had children? But you're wrong...I have...thousands of them....and all boys!"
At the Buddy Foundation I have dozens of "children"...all dogs.